The last half a year has been tough, not in trials and tribulations tough but more loosing track of all the stuff that makes me happy. Like hot baths with a good book, dancing round an empty house to show tunes (I feel sorry my neighbours), or just siting outside on a really sunny day. I only really have my self to blame for this, getting too caught up in doing the stuff I thought I should be doing , getting the grades I need, trying to be the person that society wants be to be. Looking back this was not a good idea.
SO I’M TURNING OVER A NEW LEAF.
To help me with this I’ve made a few resolutions because it may not be new year but its a new start and I’m not letting that pass me by.
So I’m not going to let moments go because I’m tired or I’ve got too much to do, I’m going to go out and enjoy everything that living in the countryside has to offer, I’m going to go for walks and lay in the grass and sit on the beech and watch storms roll in. I’m going enjoy it a record it for days when I can’t be doing the things I want to do. I will also get back to writing this blog I’m not going to think that I could do it another day, because I’ve forgot how much I love writing just for the sake of writing.
I’m going to appreciate the friendships I have and make sure that they know how much they are loved and what they mean to me in their own individual way. I will also make sure that I find a way to meet up and spend time with them, because who else can you go out for cocktails with and then find yourself on a pond in a swan pedalo.
I have also made promise to read more, not because I need to read it or I think it will make me look cool or clever on instagram but just because I love reading. I’ve already started doing this and there is no stoping me now I read everywhere on the bus, on my lunch break, in bed, anytime I have a spare moment its a chance to read something and escape to another world or learn something new; and I love it.
I will also remind my self how to really enjoy music, not just something to listen to when you’re traveling or in the background while you’re cooking dinner, although those things are great. I’m going to let my self be affected by the art that many talented people have created. I am also going to get around to starting my ultimate playlist that I’ve been promising myself I’ll make for ages. I will also play more music. just for myself because that truly makes me happy.
I guess all I’m trying to do with these resolutions is trying to find a way to be happier, which in the end is what we’re all trying to do one way or another.